:: Leaving a legacy for my son ::

When my son Thomas was born 2 years ago, I experienced something phenomenal. Besides the obvious miracle of childbirth itself, the birth of this little boy, this helpless child, stirred something else inside me. The experience was beautiful and inspiring, and down right frightening. I was out of my mind. Until this moment I was a free spirit, bound by no one. I was full of dreams and aspirations, with little concern for accomplishing them. And honestly, before that moment, I felt I had all the time in the world.

So there he was, in my arms, this innocent little baby; my one and only heir if you will. This perfect little being is MY son. And I thought, this isn't how it's supposed to be. A dad has a career, not a part-time job. A dad is a role model, he's not a kid himself. A dad isn't content to live with his mom while he waits for opportunity to come find him. What's he gonna say when he goes to school and the other kids ask what I do? Say "My Dad delivers pizzas"? Daddy's gonna come to school on career day and talk about how important it is to check your oil, and make sure you wear a hair net around the food?? I don't think so! That was the moment I decided to do something great with my life that my son could be proud of. Make a respectible future for myself. A future for him. A future for HIS kids. A legacy...

I had a few things going for me. I have a loving supportive family, I knew what I wanted to do with my life and I had the talent to do it. But there are plenty of talented people living in cardboard boxes. I needed more than that. I sat down and started writing out a plan - the first of hundreds of revisions. I read books on business, took a few classes, researched on the web. I learned a great deal about marketing and sharpened my skills as a composer along the way, but I was still very far from my goal. And the goal itself started to feel very unrealistic and unattainable. Setbacks occured. I was advised to give up. But I continued to write music. I always wrote music. No matter what.

So, after dozens of audio books, self-hypnosis, affirmations, meetings with respected elders, self-hypnosis, practice, pracice, practice and even self-hypnosis ... I find myself only a few notches higher on the ladder. I'm in an extremely competitive industry, and those who fail to rise above the crowd, simply fail. But I just remind myself that FAILURE cannot cope with PERSISTENCE. And I continue on my quest.

With your help, I will succeed.